I, like many of us who struggle with our weight, shy away from having my picture taken. I just find that the image does not match how I feel I look. So I avoid it. Denial? Yes. Better than self hatred, though.
But I got curious this morning. I did pose for pictures during my daughter's graduation trip and I wanted to see how they looked compared with the last photos I have of myself, which happen to be from last summer. And 59 pounds ago.
The reason I was curious is I realize I do have this tendency to think I look "better" than I actually do. I was feeling very slim on my trip, then I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and was surprised to see how big I still looked. I still have a long way to go to get into a more normal weight range.
But there is no doubt that I look much better than I did last summer. I am much more fit. I remember when we went to Chez Panisse in Berkeley that I was huffing and puffing walking back to our car which was parked uphill from the restaurant. It alarmed my daughter and embarrassed me.
I hope by the time the next big event rolls around that I am even more happy to pose for photos with my family.
5 comments:
Love the photos. I am so glad you took them. I shied away from the camera for so many years and finally realized that I regretted not being in the old photos, regardless of what I looked like. And that I was cheating my kids out of having me in those memories too.
You look great!
You look wonderful. And your daughter is so beautiful!
Love the photo, I think you look happy! I do the same thing - but am getting better at knowing when those moments of self-awareness will be good for me or set me back. I just don't want any reason to feel down & say "to hell with it!" (dress & sweater look nice)
A huge difference!
You and I have so very much in common--I always feel like I'm looking cute until I catch that glimpse or see a photo.
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